the dark side

part one
Don’t' you just hate it when you snap around people. There’s the situational losing it when your alone, then there is the losing it when your around people (which is the ultimate worst cause the ugly side comes out). Unfortunately, this time, I got super agitated around my friends at Jens photo shoot. I’m still not sure the source of it all, I just know that the end result was me getting agitated. By the way, for all you readers out there, you’ll always know something is wrong with me when I clam up. Everyone that knows me knows I love to be loud. But back to the story, I just got really irritated and my loving attitude just went down the drain. Reasons aren’t’ really important but if your reading this Jen, it wasn’t your or the photo shoot, it was more of a personal attitude adjustment on my part. Actually, it was the p word. Pride! Today was still an awesome day though; pretty much everything that coulda went wrong! What went wrong??? The film was somehow not exposing right, the circuit breaker for power went out, and it was cold. And inadvertently, I got extremely agitated. But over all, I was around friends, and that’s what really matters, being around friends.

part two
I have this thinking where I think that if people really knew who I was, that they wouldn’t really want to know me. Hence, the ugly side of showing agitation. But I guess everyone thinks that though, that no one would like them if others really knew what thoughts went through their minds. It’s actually pretty dumb to think such a think too. In today’s' church service, Pastor Paul gave us some tips on true friends. He said that a true friendship will only come about when both parties are willing to truly open up and reveal themselves. Look at friendships; they will never grow if secrets are things are kept. My 2 best friends in the world are Dave Lowe and Dave Lewis. They pretty much know more about me than anyone else, through my hard and through my rough times, they still called me friend. God truly gave me such amazing 2 best friends. It’s funny cause Dave Perlich said “what, am I not your best friend too?” LOL Oh no, not another Dave!

1 Samuel 20:16-18 (The Message)
15 -16keep the covenant friendship with my family--forever. And when GOD finally rids the earth of David's enemies, stay loyal to Jonathan!" 17Jonathan repeated his pledge of love and friendship for David. He loved David more than his own soul!

1/2 business

I guess there are times when getting stuff accomplished takes priority over serving, but this week hasn't been one of them. I like to devote a substantial amount if my time to ministry, not big ministry but just being faithful to what little that God has given me responsibilities in. unfortunately, it seems like this past week or even month has been such a busy period for me: going to the junkyard for parts, masters college, csun, financial aid, getting a new military id, meetings, etc. all of these sound legit but they don't truly take priority over my area's of personal ministry. Fortunately, now that I’ve gotten most of that busyness out of my way, I can go back to putting in more time into serving people (and truly serving God).

I don't really do much; all I do is share the gospel with people and pass out bibles. God is the true heart surgeon for people.
Personal confession and testimony: I do notice that when I try to do things on my own will and change people with my own words, nothing really happens. That’s how beautiful and powerful God is! Even over my little seemingly important things.

friends blogs

HEY! check out my friends blogs, they have drama, comedy, suspense, you could spend a couple of hours reading theirs and save yourselves a ton of money that the movies would ussually charge for all of this. these links to the right under brothers and sisters are some must read blogs!!!

stressin out

i've gotta stop stressing out and do the matthew 6:33 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." and proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

jens exhibit - patricia murrillo

I just wanted to promote jen's art exhibit. Jen fully put a lot of effort into this exhibit and it truly shows too. For those of you who don't know, it's a curate for a wonderful lady named Patricia Murrillo. I met her for the first time tonight and was blown away by her art and passion and excitement for it.It’s a must see!!! ... So go support this exited jen person who put it all together.

confused

danged, have you ever been confused about everything??? that's how i feel. so i'm just gonna go hop on my quiet time with GOD and ask for answers as to "what's going on." i think i'm just not focussed today.

classes are...

So my classes are doing pretty well... I think. Mid terms are coming up and I haven't really been studying. I only have 3 classes though: philosophy 2, auto engines rebuild, and auto brakes and struts. So I was parking my car on Tuesday to go to class when I realized that we had an exam. How on earth did I forget to study for an exam??? To top it off, I had no money for a scantron or a pencil (only because I usually carry pens though). but it turned out good (thank goodness) cause I had ran into a buddy who gave me a pen and was also on his way to a test so I was also able to get a free scantron. i love the way GOD works. and even better, since I always sit in the front, I pretty much knew enough of the test to get a B on the test ( although I’d rather an A). As for my auto classes, they have become frustrating. It seems like all the parts I need are either unavailable or unatainable, and I’m running out of money too. What to do??? I’m trying to revamp my camarro but at the same time, I want to be a good steward of the money that GOD's provided me. What verse is that??? I’ve actually been praying about it but haven't really gotten an answer as far as what to do yet. So keep that up in prayer for me please cause i do want this car project to fully be GOD worthy. It’s really easy for me to get caught up in my impulses (as I personally testify for myself) for fast cars and the idea of building things myself. But ultimately, the question is really "how does all this glorify God in my life?"

oh yeah, I think since I am starting to understand brake systems better, I was thinking about starting up a little brakes ministry for nightwatch. Pretty much, I’ll do or teach brakes for anyone that is interested for free. It pretty simple and can save people 100's of dollars and is an opportunity for me to both: glorify God with my newly learned skills and serve my brothers and sisters. WHAT DO YOU GUYS AND GALS THINK??? YAY OR NAY

hi

hi

Mauritania, Africa

i've been really encouraged by a couple of things these last few days. first is how great and amazing our GOD is. i'm in awe of how GOD would go to such a lenth to grab the attention of ordinary sinners, even to the extent of laying down the life of the Son of God himself. ISAIAH 53:10 "Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put [him] to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see [his] seed, he shall prolong [his] days, and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand."
(for those of you who weren'te there...) this past sundays worship was done by a few volunteer masters college students. One of the songs sung was "how great is our God." it pretty much says that our Lord is amazing. the message is quite simple but it was all I could think about days, the fact that GOD is so great. WOW!
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I guess tomorrow is the big day for me. the missons commite is going to present to the elder board the proposal to send missionaries over seas for the summer of '06. i've been feeling a tugging on my heart to give my upcoming summer to serving. so after running the idea through a few people and asking for inputs, i end up at the churches once a month missions meeting (after working my way through a whole list of people as to what the steps to serving as a summer missionary was). I wasn't sure of what to expect from this missions meetings, being that i've never been to one before. pretty much what happenned was i went in, told them that i was there to serve and that GOD was laying it on my heart to give my summer to the lord and, they all seemed to unanimously think that i was the missionary needed to teach English in Africa..
How amazing it that for GOD can articulate such a thing and make it fall into place. Turns out, the missionaries in Mauritania Africa have been asking for a long term helper. At first I wasn't too exited about the idea cause it wasn’t' out-front preaching like I am used to, and i've no teaching background, but I realized that I did say that I’ll go anywhere GOD wants to send me. Basically, it's an overseas English teacher position open and the mission is to create friends and share the gospel with them through relationships. I’ve not the darndest idea of how to teach, honest truth the closest I’ve ever come to teaching are my Sundays school kids on Sunday morning. I totally feel uneuipted but if that’s where I’m needed, I’ll go. It’s not what I’m used to, and it will be a for sure stretching of myself, but I know that GOD equips those he calls. i really wanna reach out to people as Paul of the bible did (especially V:22), without idea of what's to come:

Acts 20:18-22 (NIV)
18When they arrived, he said to them: "You know how I lived the whole time I was with you, from the first day I came into the province of Asia. 19I served the Lord with great humility and with tears, although I was severely tested by the plots of the Jews. 20You know that I have not hesitated to preach anything that would be helpful to you but have taught you publicly and from house to house. 21I have declared to both Jews and Greeks that they must turn to God in repentance and have faith in our Lord Jesus.
22"And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there.

seeking GOD

This is from a while back but I thought it would be a good spot-blog filler inner.
I was listening to a sermon by td jakes a couple of days ago (which I had downloaded a few months prior). I had heard the sermon before but figured it might me a good listening since I didn’t have too much to do and didn’t require too much attention. What was so great about this message was that it was the sermon that brought me humbly back to my knees before GOD. Basically, it was about the attitudes in which we approach GOD in. How do we seek him? Is it by love or is it almost forced (like a chore)? Then it got me thinking...
I know that personally, when it came to someone I liked, I could not wait talk to them and/or be with them. But at the same time, I would say that I loved GOD more than anything but the attitude in which I came before him with was anything but the attitude of seeking a loved one. Once again, how is our attitude in which we approach GOD? Do we come to him daily like it were a chore that had to be done, or do we seek him fully like a loved one (and so much more).
I think that's where my attitude and relationship with my lord really changed. As a result, I found myself loving everything about my relationship with my lord: I found myself loving coming to GOD, loving his word, his presence, his glory, his promise, and so much more.
I just wanted to share praise in my heart with you guys.
BTW - I’m not a particular follower of Mr. Jakes teaching or theology, but I do think he definitely can be inspiring sometimes.

welcome to my blog (doens't that leave a count choculat taste in your mouth)

hey, welcome to my blog. this is cheyDitty. i have no idea what the heck a blog is so you'll probably be as surprised as i will be when you read. first things first, GOD is #1, and that'll probably be what i write about most.